Self-Portrait Backwards letra

She said
It just seems strange
To do everything except the things you say that you want to do
I'm not trying to sound mean
If that's what you want
That's what you want
Do you still want things?

I drew myself backwards at night in our room
Started with the parts of the day reversed
First this afternoon
Man in sunlight doing dishes

We were both pretty high that night
The TV played a show again we'd already seen
She was on the floor, peeling an orange
I felt along a crack down in the back of my teeth is it a new one?
Are you still having fun?
Are you feeling fulfilled?
I don't mean to sound harsh
Do you know who you are?

I drew myself backwards at night in our room
Further to the past by the week as I went
Five or six ago
Self-portrait holding dental bill

Pin them all on the wall
In the garden I didn't plant, April
Unknown figure silhouetted by phone screen light, last fall

Color study (black and blue), age 32
Abstractions (me and you) (on-going series)
On the highway at night, at 29

Still life with red wine and vicodin, 2013
Smiling kid with stitched face, age 11
Color study (shades of white), 1987

Exhibition: Work in progress, incomplete

And you get to the end of, what, fifteen seasons of something?
And since it always seems like too much work to find something new to watch
You just start it over again
And because it's changed so much over time
It feels like a different show going all the way back
And how could you have not noticed it?

But you watch through again and it starts to make sense how
Because all the things that did were so small, so gradual
You never realized it was changing

La Dispute - Letras

• 35
• A
• A Broken Jar
• A Departure
• A Letter
• A Poem
• A Word Of Welcome And Of Warning
• All Our Bruised Bodies And The Whole Heart Shrinks
• Andria
• Anxiety Panorama
• Autofiction detail
• Bury Your Flames
• Damaged Goods
• Edit Your Hometown
• Edward Benz, 27 Times
• Eight
• Eleven
• End Times Sermon
• Environmental Catastrophe Film
• Extraordinary Dinner Party
• Fairmount
• Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again
• First Reactions After Falling Through the Ice
• Five
• Footsteps At The Pond
• For Mayor in Splitsville
• Four
• Fulton Street I
• Fulton Street Ii
• Future Wars
• Harder Harmonies
• He Is Here, He Is Not Afraid
• How I Feel
• Hudsonville Mi
• I Dreamt Of A Room With All My Friends I Could Not Get In
• I See Everything
• I Shaved My Head
• In Northern Michigan
• King Park
• Landlord Calls The Sheriff In
• Last Blues
• Last Blues For Bloody Knuckles
• Man With Hands And Ankles Bound
• New Storms For Older Lovers
• Nine
• No One Was Driving The Car
• Nobody, Not Even the Rain
• Objects In Space
• One
• Only Everything Below
• Rhodonite And Grief
• Sad Prayers For Guilty Bodies
• Safer in the Forest / Love Song for Poor Michigan
• Said the King To the River
• Saturation Diver
• Scenes from Highways 1981-2009
• See You In Vancouver
• Self-Portrait Backwards
• Seven
• Shall Never Lose It's Power
• Sibling Fistfight at Mom's Fiftieth / The Un-Sound
• Six
• St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blues
• Stay Happy There
• Steve
• Such Small Hands
• Sunday Morning, At a Funeral
• Ten
• The Castle Builders
• The Child We Lost
• The Field
• The Last Lost Continent
• The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit
• The Surgeon And The Scientist
• Then Again, Maybe You Were Right
• There You Are (Hiding Place)
• Thirteen
• Three
• To Withstand The Force Of Storms
• Top-Sellers Banquet
• Twas The Night Before Christmas
• Twelve
• Two
• Untitled
• View From Our Bedroom Window
• Why It Scares Me
• Woman (In Mirror)
• Woman (Reading)
• You And I In Unison
• You Ascendant